I would recommend people to do this. It has helped me relate my love of music with my life. Music has gotten me through the tough times, and I understand why certain songs have a special meaning to me when I hear it. For each major event in your life, write down a song title and the artist which reminds you of that event. Why is the event and song significant?
Birth: Silhouettes by Smile Empty Soul, "Silhouettes above the craddle hold me down, they won't let me go the wrong way" It's true, my parents have ruled my life with expectations and their good intentions. Like the song says "I don't wanna live like my mother, I don't want to let fear rule my life. I don't wanna live like my father, I don't want to give up before I die" I want to live my own life.
Childhood: Anything For You by Evanescence, " I'll believe all your lies, just pretend you love me. Make believe close your eyes, I"ll be anything for you" For most of my life that was basically my motto. Pretend to love me and I will do anything and be anything you want.
Adolescence: I Don't Care by Apocalyptica featuring Adam Gontier. I was in the stage of not caring about anyone. I had been betrayed so many times and to me everyone was dead.
Teenage Years: Just Like You by Three Days Grace What teenager isn't disappointed I'm the world. I was disappointed with my parents who wanted me to be more like what they wanted me to be, for the person I had become, for the years of assault, and for not being what I really thought I could be.
Death: My maternal grandfather Charlie, my uncle Alfred, my cousin Clayton, Mrs. "Niecy" Jones, my paretnal grandmother Dorthy, my cousin Deedre my uncle Andrew my friend Henry, and my maternal grandmother Annie King of Sorrow by Sade, and Watch Over You by Alterbridge. Death seemed to take over a good portion of my life. Death seemed to define who I am also. For some time during Middle School it consumed me. My poems, my writings, my speach was about death. To be honest I was intrigued and also scared of it. I am for the most part still fearful, but not as I was.
Tim, Christian, Chad then Dan: With High school came great break up songs. With Tim there wasn't much of a relationship to begin with, so I didn't miss him much when it ended. Christian lasted a few weeks. I Don't Wanna Know by Mario Winans was our song. Chad and me dated on and off for three months and then tried again when me and Mike broke up for a few weeks. I was so in love with him when I was 16. I was foolish and young, thinking he would take me away and never allow anyone or anything to hurt me. He hurt me. Behind These Hazel Eyes, and Because of You by Kelly Clarkson, Swimming Upstream by Ra were the songs I associated with him. Dan it lasted three days. We try to be friends now, but it's so much more. He's like my preverted little brother now. He didn't have a song.
Graduating From High School:Breakaway by Kelly Clarkson, it was our class song. It was so approiate. Only it would have been better if I had left the state to actually miss home.
Getting into College at HCC: Somewhere I Belong by Linkin Park. Enough said
Mike: Tiny Heart by Flyleaf describes how he came into our relatiosnhip. He had been broken and hurt from his previous. He had the hardest time opening up and loving me. Time is a great healer so is love. We still have our ups and downs but it gets stronger each day we are together. Decoy by Paramore, I felt for the longest time that I was stuck with Mike because he was so in love with me, "I'm forced into you cause you're into me " and that I was using him to get over Chad "I'm using you, abusing you, my little decoy". There are days I do believe he is waisting his time on me. And then are days I never want him to leave my sight or I'll die"I'm not sorry at all, I'd do it over again."Nov 19, 2006- Present
